Last night I had a find-free-podcasts mindset. I got a lot from National Geographic. It was one of those random outbursts you get. Well you might not get them, but I certainly do.

Sometimes I can't but help wonder but what if I were in the middle of the seat at the time of the crash? When I was in second grade we spent (I think) Spring Break in Maryland. When we were going back to Maryland from Washington D.C., my dad misjudged the light and turned on red. We swerved and I think we hit one of the poles. I remember we hit a car and stuff but it was too quick.

We were in a minivan and there were three rows. The front row included the driver and a passenger seat. The second row had two seatbelts, and the third had three seatbelts. All of the seatbelts were taken so I was placed in the middle of the second row (there were three of us and two seatbelts). After awhile my aunt switched sides with me. So now this time she's in danger without the seatbelt.

After the crash she had bruises but thankfully she was fine and is still living a healthy life.

Anyway back to what I was saying... what if I were still in the middle? Would my life be different than it is now? Would I be dead? If so, I'd be dead for ten years (which is a weird thing to think). Or am I just exaggerating this?

I've been getting this feeling that I tend to exaggerate things. I make a big deal out of things. I tend to blow things out of proportion or something. I just get that feeling.

RIP DC, RG, CA, TA
Even after a year of mourning this feeling of loss never goes away.

I think this is another hiatus until I can sort everything together. It's getting a little too personal to lay all of this out onto the internet.

I do that too
The occasional podcast splurge never did anybody any harm, although as the owner of a nano it's sometimes hard to find anything decent -_-. Most of the good stuff is video.

Hmm...what if. What if, what if. That's always the question. Personally I don't like to ask it, because then there springs too many more hypotheticals and their own respective "what ifs." I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say that you're life would've been different had you actually stayed in the middle seat. But you weren't, so that's all that matters I guess.

I don't know who or what is to be mourned, but they were important to someone. Initials, maybe?

P.S. A little unrelated, but I'm going to back up that recommendation on Evangelion. Great series with a lot of biblical references, but it doesn't have a religious theme at all. It gets a little mind warped at the end, but that's part of why I like it so much; it's so bizarre you don't forget it. Have fun...
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-12 10:59:03

P.S.S.
Let me rephrase part of that. It's a great series with a lot of biblical references, but minus the religious overtones, which I find to be a plus. But that's just personal preference.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-12 11:00:42

I get random outbursts all the time
But usually they're outbursts of random things. Like one day I'll think "I want to knit!!" or "Yeah, Naruto!!" or "Japanese cooking!" etc. So I request all the related books from the library with interesting titles. But by the time I get them all, my inflamed interest is gone.

Or, worse, I go and find sites for the different topics (especially the movie, actor, anime or manga-related ones), and download lots of 'cool pictures' and especialy avatars. Then I won't use or look at them for a while. And most of them usually get deleted because I'm trying to make some room for all my music, or an anime episode I want to download, or something.

But anyways.

Neon Genesis Evangelion is a good series. I didn't get very far into it, because the library wanted it back before I could finish it. Dai-Guard is another good one, too. Slightly more comical, and fun to watch. Samurai Champloo is my favorite. Mostly for its humor. =D And so on, and so forth.
» invisible on 2007-07-13 05:08:06

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