I definitely know that I'm not going to finish my last post. So all you need to know is that the cruise was great and I wish we didn't lose the first day to Gloucester, New Jersey. Don't travel on U.S. Airways (or as the worker in Quality Inn in NJ said, Useless Airways).

So the news is that I'm leaving on Tuesday for California. It's so far, I know. And everyone's right.... it's like Long Island with palm trees. Being in Stockton does not help one bit. I know I'll be home sick. I'm going to miss a lot of people. The thing is that I tried to hang out with everyone and plans didn't go well. There have been a lot of people avoiding me and I'm not sure if it's something I did. People are not responding to my messages like they were during high school.

I shouldn't let this bother me but I am. Does this mean I'm being clingy? I mean for all I know, I probably won't ever see these people again especially if they don't talk to me. I don't want to not talk to anyone from high school. It's a shame to build a friendship and just lose it just because high school's over.

If you can't hang out or something, just say you can't. At least I know you're alive and well. Don't keep saying "Let's hang out."

Well I did my best to maintain these friendships but if they don't want to ...then whatever. I'll just move on with life and see them at the high school reunion.



I was just thinking about what I just wrote. I'll probably see everyone during winter break. Even if the summer plans didn't succeed, it'll never be too late... unless people decide not to come home for the holidays. ugh.






So about me. I haven't watched anime in a while. It's not that it's boring... I just don't know what to watch next. Lately I've been playing .hack//gu because there's nothing to do. I went down port with a couple of people lately. I think I want to go out east or the city at least once this summer.

Ugh
I've been fearing something like this. I don't know what spurred me into realization, but it finally hit me how much I don't want to give up high school, give up this life, these friends, this sport, this...everything. I mean it's not like I won't be able to ever speak to them again, there's phones for that. But it just won't be the same. Gahh I'm just so afrid of losing people....I'm not traveling out of state, but does that really change anything?

I have not watched anime in a while either, probably because I just don't have time in general (or the patience to download them -_-). Although recently I started watching Deth Note (I can't spell it the real way, my computer freaks out. Thank my dad's security programming for that)...it's a little elementary in how it introduces the plot, characters, etc., but the theme is pretty interesting. I can't really generalize though since I've only watched 2 episodes heh. I dunno if you've seen it yet.

I don't know why this got so long, but I'll shut up now.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-08-16 03:01:18

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